Sail on..

kill it and cry!! fireworks once lit don't wait to fire.. live it all ,with your suitcases packed..come back if you want..if your heart desires...all won't wait so sail on sailor, to the destination you own , the destination unknown

The more connected ,the more disconnecred i feel..

Sometimes I ask myself why... I lie here in my bed unable to sleep..more than often it happens when you are not tired.. But here I am tired as hell... Running very day for 13hours..to compete in this rat race.. I wonder as I invest my life into this routine what is it tht I wish to achieve... What am I deriving out of these voices I hear everyday.. Sometimes there are so many that I don't want to hear anything and just be in peace.. Where is this peace.. How can one be peaceful today..the doze of ambition that we take in everyday has led us to believe that this would help us attain nirvana.. Everyday I see people celebrate life..when we have a new born..today a 15month old child ,who can barely speak or even eat a proper grainualar meal knows how to operate an I pad...what are we creating.. The gap that the future is trying to bridge is coming in fast and it's possession is something that you can't escape... There is no morphine for an ailment called life.. Is that the we work hard everyday so tht we burnout faster.. Or is it to contribute...what is this contribution that we make in this make belief world.. With one dive in the sea the paradigm shifts...And we realise that we are the minority.. With 75% of earth being water ,why aren't we making the products for the aqua world and selling it to them for a few shells.. Isn't that the biggest potential market.. And yes these thoughts .. Today my mind finds a commercial value in peace.. We are so used to encashing each breath that we take that we miss out.. We miss out on our peace which is priceless.. Today as I lie in my bed with this over the top priced device that I have earned out of my sleepless nights I realise ... That I have paid to buy myself sleeplessness.. So what is the solution that I need ..what is the fix.. The rest is a permanent closure.. Catch your breadth ,you are running hard.. And if you can hear your heart beat..then maybe somewhere around ..there is 'peace'

Decoding..

Every day when i move ahead with life and interact with people ,i hear them speak- i fail to understand this thing called love.. to each there own kind of love..
now wht is it i wonder.. what is the defination.. what are the parameters of this thing called love..
is the chemistry between two people,or is it passion, is it the words spoken , or is it the dedication..
is it a phase or something more eternal.. to each his own.. i want to know ..
i want to know what is this thing called love..
what is the mystry behind it that draws every human..
is it the history attached which didnt even spare the Romans..
why is it that Paris is the city of love..when there is no time to love there..
and why are there singles is Chicago ,with singles everywhere..
why is that people get married at Vegas which is known for gamble..
and move around churches when al else is in shambles..
oh what is this thing called love..
isnt it funny the thing called love..
some take lives for it and some give in ..
but is it what life is meant for ,they seldom think..
a lot goes on in the name of love.. i wannow what is this love ..
to each their own love..
people cash out on the Taj by naming it love..
hang posters on the wall for the proof of love..
but there are a few who fail to love ..
they say they attain nirvana by traveling miles to escape this thing called love..
but i never see them alone.. because maybe it was all about love..

oh i dont understand the connection.. it is the heart or mind which are not in association...
is it like algebra where only the skilled survive..
or is it as easy as breathing ..and hence it thrives..
the special effects that are a part of the package make me smile..
but then i fell isnt it worth if it gets you to smile..
so to me its the smile that is love..
so why dont you smile..if in love..

My friend !

Hey..writing after long...actually really long.. This post of mine is dedicated to a friend..who kinda reminded me of a side of me which I was going to let go off... Sometimes you need to create strong impressions in the past such that when you start forgetting that you ever had a grip on it..it's lets you know that you did hold on to something ...something close...something you did hold onto so tight ,that you created an impression..an impression of you !! Which was an expression of you .. I feel people around you tell you a lot about you ...the you that you never knew!!!that you that you ,yourself are constantly discovering ! That you that you don't want anyone else to know!! That you that makes you wonder 'who are you' ! Yes !! Who am I !! I have been avoiding to write for the last two years!! I don't really know if I am the same 'me 'still !! And if I am the same me then should I be that way now ! Thoughts thoughts!! And then there is SILENCE ! Have i earned a silent friend ! If not then whom do I talk to now ! I see a lot of chaos around !!life surely ain't getting easy! There are complications all around ! People expecting ! People restricting ! People chanting ... All that they have to... But I hold my friend's hand ! And all is fine... I am not into morphine..but I feel passive!! Passive enough that now my reactions seem funny ! I am angry ,or happy , or sad because that's is display of normal emotions..but do i feel ? I feel i enact ! Do you play fair ?Through life and people you gain ! You gain the drama that you have to carry on till the time you learn something new to enact!! Ape's descendants aren't we ;).. From one survival trick to another ! And all is watched ..and all is expressed ..as with the silent friend we walk along ....don't know for how long...but we walk along...