My friend !

Hey..writing after long...actually really long.. This post of mine is dedicated to a friend..who kinda reminded me of a side of me which I was going to let go off... Sometimes you need to create strong impressions in the past such that when you start forgetting that you ever had a grip on it..it's lets you know that you did hold on to something ...something close...something you did hold onto so tight ,that you created an impression..an impression of you !! Which was an expression of you .. I feel people around you tell you a lot about you ...the you that you never knew!!!that you that you ,yourself are constantly discovering ! That you that you don't want anyone else to know!! That you that makes you wonder 'who are you' ! Yes !! Who am I !! I have been avoiding to write for the last two years!! I don't really know if I am the same 'me 'still !! And if I am the same me then should I be that way now ! Thoughts thoughts!! And then there is SILENCE ! Have i earned a silent friend ! If not then whom do I talk to now ! I see a lot of chaos around !!life surely ain't getting easy! There are complications all around ! People expecting ! People restricting ! People chanting ... All that they have to... But I hold my friend's hand ! And all is fine... I am not into morphine..but I feel passive!! Passive enough that now my reactions seem funny ! I am angry ,or happy , or sad because that's is display of normal emotions..but do i feel ? I feel i enact ! Do you play fair ?Through life and people you gain ! You gain the drama that you have to carry on till the time you learn something new to enact!! Ape's descendants aren't we ;).. From one survival trick to another ! And all is watched ..and all is expressed ..as with the silent friend we walk along ....don't know for how long...but we walk along...