General Entry ..sumtym in Jan 2009

Sometimes I ask myself why... I lie here in my bed unable to sleep..more than often it happens when you are not tired.. But here I am tired as hell... Running very day for 13hours..to compete in this rat race.. I wonder as I invest my life into this routine what is it tht I wish to achieve... What am I deriving out of these voices I hear everyday.. Sometimes there are so many that I don't want to hear anything and just be in peace.. Where is this peace.. How can one be peaceful today..the doze of ambition that we take in everyday has led us to believe that this would help us attain nirvana.. Everyday I see people celebrate life..when we have a new born..today a 15month old child ,who can barely speak or even eat a proper grainualar meal knows how to operate an I pad...what are we creating.. The gap that the future is trying to bridge is coming in fast and it's possession is something that you can't escape... There is no morphine for an ailment called life.. Is that the we work hard everyday so tht we burnout faster.. Or is it to contribute...what is this contribution that we make in this make belief world.. With one dive in the sea the paradigm shifts...And we realise that we are the minority.. With 75% of earth being water ,why aren't we making the products for the aqua world and selling it to them for a few shells.. Isn't that the biggest potential market.. And yes these thoughts .. Today my mind finds a commercial value in peace.. We are so used to encashing each breath that we take that we miss out.. We miss out on our peace which is priceless.. Today as I lie in my bed with this over the top priced device that I have earned out of my sleepless nights I realise ... That I have paid to buy myself sleeplessness.. So what is the solution that I need ..what is the fix.. The rest is a permanent closure.. Catch your breadth ,you are running hard.. And if you can hear your heart beat..then maybe somewhere around ..there is 'peace'