Grieving

"I know you want to hate me " he said .. " No ! I want to stab you " She said !

So you killed me again and you don't know you did ! 

You kept up those walls , those walls that keep you from me .. I don't know what is it that you hide ..

Is that soul so weak that it needs to hide behind chores - is the love so weak that it can only happen behind closed doors !

Why is there an expectation to understand what was never meant to be understood ,if there is so much analogy how will the heart function as it should .

You keep me at a distance for me to gaze ,and when your heart desires, you pull me close to admire my glaze..

I toy with my heart as it pains so much ,I don't think to hurt is love as such..

I hope you explored enough to not commit - I hope I gave enough to not omit !

If still not your soul then I don't belong here ..let me give you the knife and not stab you my dear - if you feel as I felt it's enough grief , I am leaving it with you ,it's yours to keep !

Forever

 So I will disappear .. For I don't see my sun and how do I reflect my lustre !

 So much of me is you and  I wonder if any of you is me .. So I hide you in my evenings and nights !

Life is not fiction and I realise that as I awake from a life that I have been sleep walking through !

You gave me the grit, to be cold .. as cold as you are .. how else I would be successful with a heart like mine !

I am keeping this virtue as a shameless cape !

My possible heart and passion have learnt to accept not longing.. 

Only a broken can value the cracks ..and only if cracked you need to conceal !

Are all smiles flawed and yet beautiful !

Get close to me and breathe ..I want to feel alive again .. for our souls to connect and play the game of love ! once more to lose to you and once more for you to be lost again ! When the lights go out and you breathe again .. I know your eyes long .. as they have forever ..I know your heart beats - as forever !

I know you are mine - forever !