Save Me

 In-affection is what I seek , how do I arrive at it with my heart so weak !

I am at a loss of word with my eccentricity , what it is that I want to feel !

What is it that my heart wants to secure - why am I so hurt !

My mind is fully aware with the arrangements and acing the act !

Congratulations as you withdraw I am going back - back to the same nonchalant being !

Back to engaging without feeling - I am demanding reality to feel less fake !

I am asking for black and white while I am playing in grey !

I recognise a broken heart and the pain and maybe I am trying to heal it because I don't want anyone to not feel and with that I am trying to fill my emptiness !

Who am I ?

Who am I ?

What are my morals ?

Why am I drifting - what do I want .. I am begging for life to save me !

I am not able to handle this wanderings and wanderlust because it visions collapse of a system !

I am collapsing trying to hold the structure - I am collapsing trying to structure what we have - I am collapsing trying to ask you something I don't even want !

I want to be loved for real !I Want to be saved for real !

IS there no-one who knows and cares ..my heart breaks and never dares ..